June 2010
12 posts
To the Straight Guy at the Party Last Night.
justanotherprettylie:
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Reblogged from fuckyeahlgbt; Via this Craigslist post:
A mutual friend of ours threw a big party for her 30th birthday, tons of people were there and it was a lot of fun. Somewhere along the line you and I ended up on the balcony for some fresh air at the same time. We started chatting; we talked about sports, books, tv...
Packing
Imagine packing your life away.
First, figure out what you need most: clothing, toiletries, shoes.
Second, figure out what you will miss most, then pack what is packable.
Thirdly, explain to those you are leaving that you will be coming back, one day.
Get containers, boxes, suitcases, bags.
Go through everything, closets, drawers, under your beds or couches, dressers, desks, EVERYTHING.
...
“The issue isn’t whether I care or not, it’s the fact that you...”
Some Kinds of Freedom
There are many types of freedom. Freedom is like the number infinity, you don’t know how big it is, but there are no limitations.
When you have freedom from something, you are just so open, so lively, so present.
This is how I feel right now. I am absolutely elated that it is summer. Camp starts Monday and so far all of the events leading up to now ever since the last day of school have...
It. Is. SUMMER!!!!!!!
Yay!
Finally.
I still have to do a history project.
But summer
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Two days.
Two days and I will not have to worry about him. I won’t see him. I won’t hear from him. I won’t care. Two days until I am free. No more stupid overanalyzing. No more liking. No more nothing. THANK the WORLD! I really can’t take it. I’m so over obsessive I can’t focus on studying for finals..which I really should be doing. alfkjasdflkjasdf okay.
must go...
Single Ladies Cover! Marmaduke Duke
great...
Believe-The Bravery
Give me something to believe.
I am living just to breathe.
I need something more to keep on breathing for.
Give me something to believe.
I am hiding from some beast but the beast was always here.
Watching without eyes because the beast is just my fear,
that I am just a nothing, that is just what I’ve become.
What am I waiting for? It’s already done.
...
Sad.
I haven’t posted in a while. However the reason is I have been confined to my finals studying. It has been truly dreadful.
I wanted to comment on the recent Flotilla incident with Israel. I am attending a pro-Israel rally tomorrow. The whole incident is bogus. People are so pathetic. I am ashamed to call myself a person, a human. After what the “humanitarians” did on the...
Told One.
One too many.
Captive to my Thoughts
I wonder if he’s thinking of me right now.
If he looks at my facebook page too.
I wonder.
I can’t help but wonder.
I know he knows, but does he want to tell me too?
Why did summer have to get in the way? It’s the only thing stopping this from coming true.
Idiocracy.
I am no longer a free bird.
I am no longer free.
I am confined to my thoughts.
They won’t escape me.
I tried so hard to let it go, I tried so hard, but here now I have nothing left to show.
I wish I could take it all back, I wish I could put you in the past.
I won’t make time for you.
I said I would, but I won’t.
I won’t love you.
I said I did, but I don’t.
...
May 2010
34 posts
I just want to be happy.
I don't think...
I don’t think that it is love. I don’t know him. But I really like him and my heart pounds like a cheetah when I am with him. I wish he felt the same.
I actually have followers. This is incredibly cool. Thanks! Even if there are only two of you!
Today was sad. I went to my grandpa’s gravesite where his tombstone was unveiled. I cried so much. I miss him so so so much.
Great now I’m crying again.
Blah.
School tomorrow.
Natalie Portman, Lisa Cuddy (something Edelstein, I don’t know her first name, from house) and Lisa...
Things I like
Bold what you like:
1) Striped socks. 2) Winter vacation. 3) Minty breath. 4) Warm hands. 5) Sublime. 6) Proving people wrong. 7) Sketching. 8) Steel drums. 9) Tampons. 10) The Sims 2. 11) Kissing. 12) Backpacks. 13) Cloudy weather. 14) Picking out presents for people. 15) Kevin Flamme. 16) Boys. 17) Old movies. 18) Reminiscing. 19) Mario Party. 20) Orange juice. 21) Interesting people. 22)...
Fuck Yeah Surveys: 100.
100.
100 Bands [or Musicians] To Which I Listen To: 1. The Beatles. 2. Bon Jovi. 3. The Fray. 4. Leona Lewis. 5. Taylor Swift. 6. Miley Cyrus. 7. Demi Lovato. 8. Taking Back Sunday. 9. The Academy Is… 10. Alesana. 11. Blessthefall. 12. Colbie Caillat. 13. John Lennon. 15. Katy Perry. 16. Michael Buble. 17. The Hives. 18. The Killers. 19. Norma Jean. 20. August Burns Red. 21. Every Time I...
I like surveys :].
ABC 1
A - is for the last person that made you ANGRY: you did.
B - is for BEER you prefer: buddddd light. but I don’t really drink.
C - is for do you have a CAT? Yeah, she’s my baby.
D - is for can you DANCE? I could if I wanted to. haha
E - is for do you have your EARS pierced? yep
F - is for your best FRIEND? Alex, Cel, Allie, Yoni, Sep… I could go on too.
G - is for...
cross out what you have, italicize what you want.
fuckyeahsurveys:
sethfacee:
asdfsandra:
lovejamiex:
1. A cellphone. 2. A hair straightener. 3. Your own computer. 4. Your own car. 5. Chanel/Dior/Gucci sunglasses. 6. A designer purse. 7. A boyfriend/girlfriend. 8. A curling iron. 9. Every Fall Out Boy CD. 10. Something from American Eagle. 11. Something from Hot Topic. 12. Something from Hollister. 13. Something from Abercrombie. 14. A...
start at 100% then subtract 1 for each you've...
fuckyeahsurveys:
burnthegirl:
1. Smoked. 2. Drank alcohol. 3. Cried when someone died. 4. Been drunk. 5. Had sex. 6. Been to a concert. 7. Gotten a handjob/fingered. 8. Given a blowjob/ate out someone. 9. Been verbally harassed. 10. Verbally harassed somebody. PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 96%
11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up. 12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. 13. Cheated on a...
lolz.
If I were a month, I’d be December. If I were a day of the week, I’d be Saturday. If I were a time of day, I’d be 9:00PM. If I were a planet, I’d be Pluto. If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Dolphin. If I were a direction, I’d be North. If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a bed. If I were a liquid, I’d be paint. If I were a gemstone, I’d be a Ruby. If I were a tree, I’d be a maple. If I were...
NYC
In the Big Apple, the place my heart lives.
I watched Gossip Girl today, kinda wish that was me, not the drama, but the lifestyle.
Sucks that we don’t live in a fantasy world!
Reblogged-Fuckyeahsurveys.tumblr.com
Do you think things will change in the next 3 months? I really really hope so. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? my mother… Waiting for something? yeah :] Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you? Sadly, just a friend. You never know what you got until you lose it? True or false? I prefer to say you don’t know what you got...
You.
GO AWAY. Please.
Yes you, no not you, not my readers, (that I apparently don’t have), but you, Mr. I’m NEVER going to hurt you.
Well you did.
And then you have the nerve to text me.
And then you show up on my buddy list.
And I actually want to IM you????? WHAT IS UP WITH THAT?
GO AWAY.
Stop.
Even when we don’t speak you somehow have the ability to play with my head.
I...
Cry
No, I never thought I’d do it, but once I did, well I never think I’ll be the same person again. I never thought he’d hurt me, but he did, and I am not the same cheerful girl I once was. How do I come back? I miss me. I can’t take this anymore. My thoughts, beating me up. My mom, telling me to forgive. How can I? What if I hadn’t told? He’d still be hurting me....
No one can be a nobody because someone, somewhere thinks you’re a someone no matter what anybody says or what somebody else does.
No one. Nobody. Someone. Anybody. Somebody.
No. One. Body. Some. Any.
Right now, I’ve got no one. Not one body. But someday, I know it will come to be. That I’ll have my somebody. That somebody who is there who loves who cares. That someone who...
16174.) I secretly watch (and enjoy) Disney...
(via blogsecret)
Hm...
The feeling. Undeniable. The heart, it pounds faster with every beat.
Could it be possibly to love someone who I barely know? Who I speak to everyday, yet know it will never be mutual?
It can’t be. It’s so.. so unrealistic.
Regardless, those butterflies, the smiles, the heart beat, it’s always there when I’m with you. I can’t control myself. Just Someone. Just my...
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PERMITTED! I can DRIVE!! WOOOOO!
I CAN GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM THIS PLACE SOON!
YESSSSSS
2962.) I would give anything to know what's on...
(via blogconfession)
2967.) I try to put a smile on and act like...
(via blogconfession)
Mommy
Happy Mother’s Day Mom.
You might not always be the best mom. You might yell too much. Sometimes, you can make me feel like my heart is breaking.
However, those times that you are there, the times that you are the nicest, most caring woman in the world, make it all worth while. I love you.
Happy YOU Day.
<3
Back
Tonight I decided that I would go back to actually writing things on this, rather than being lazy and just putting down sentences.
Today was not a good day for me. It wasn’t bad, but it really just confused the shit out of me. I feel alone and lost. My best friends confuse me. The guy I like confuses me even more, and the rest of the world, well it’s a big place, it’s full of...
“Love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and...”
– Wikipedia, definition of Love. (via fuckyeahhlove)
no..it isn’t. it isn’t it isn’t it isn’t. attachment is bad. when you get attached, you always have to be unattached at one point. love is something you never want to lose. don’t get attached. be in love, not...
Dear Just Someone,
Today was not so good. Today was not so great. I wanted to sit with you, but you were running late. You were really walking slow, just thought I'd let you know. When you went to the back, I knew my heart was under attack. I want you so, but you don't really know. I told you one time how you make my heart shine. How you make me glow. How I wish you really could see, how great it would be, you and me.
Things are going on. Things are moving fast. You are standing there, and my heart is beating fast. I think I believe in love, but I think I'm losing that fight. I think that when I see your face, it lights up my night.
The fight with love, that never-ending desire, that never-ending hurt, that never-ending smile. Two sided, bipolar, sometimes it even gives you the cold shoulder.
Please give me a chance, we don't have to dance. I like you so much, it's just a big crush, but for now I will say, have a good day.
Freedom Rings Nowhere. My Heart Is Under Attack
Probability
The probability that I like you is high.
The probability that I can love you is higher.
The probability that you care is low.
The probability that you will ever feel the same way is lower.
The probability that someone out there will love me in a way you never can is high.
The probability that someone somewhere will love you is also high.
Sometimes I wish that I could be your probability.
...
Woah.
So ex-something or other love interest, possibility person texted me today.
crazy intense.
and i got asked out, on a date by someone else.
that’s cool?
people do like me?
i don’t know if i want to go out with him, but we’ll see.
However my issue is that I may like other people, I do like other people, what if I played him? That’d be wrong. I’m not like that,...
hmph.
i hate homework.
i hate not feeling like doing it.
i hate failing, so i have to do it.
i don’t care about my english and not using capitals.
i hate this.
i have no desire to do homework. none what so ever.
so will i?
yes. because otherwise i will not get into my dream school, columbia.
UGH!
I’m not one to hate on bloggers. Especially not my best friend’s “anonymous” blog. BUT SHE DIDN’T EVEN MENTION ME.
I’m just sick of her shit. I won’t take pity for her “depression.” She just wants attention and I won’t give it to her. If she doesn’t want to be social she is going to feel lonely. I shouldn’t give up my...
Let's Be Friends.
I miss when we used to talk about everything.
I miss when I could just tell you I missed you.
But since we aren’t friends anymore, I can’t and I miss that.
I’m thinking about you.
Just know that I will always care. I’m sorry I made such an idiotic mistake. I’ll never do something so stupid ever again.
I Miss You
I miss you. I wish you could be here to see how I am, so that I could call you and tell you how much I love you. I wish there were a lot of things that I don’t have, especially you.
Ever since you left, — not died, you never died, you are so alive right now,—- but ever since you left this place, this godforsaken awful place, my life has been empty. I don’t feel connected...
Why doesn’t anybody want to be with me? As MORE than just a friend.
I want to be loved.
I’m ready for love.
Somebody out there… Love me?
Let's Get Loud.
Turn the music up PLEASE.
Anything is better than these sounds.
April 2010
7 posts
Technology
SUCKS!! I mean I love it and all… However I just wrote about 5 Pages worth of bloggage, and all of a sudden, gone and no getting it back.
BLAH.
I won’t retype it.
Blah.
Essays.
Essays suck. So Hard. So Much. All of the above.
Must. Keep. Writing. Until. Finished……….God Save Me.
I’ll probably be up until 1 or 2 AM.
Freedom Rings Nowhere… Someday, Somewhere.
Love
I’ve started to believe that I will never find a true love. I don’t know why I think this. People tell me that I am pretty, some even say gorgeous. That’s a matter of opinion. But regardless of what I look like, comparing the amount of times I’ve hooked up with the amount of times I had a boyfriend is ridiculous. Especially since one of those numbers is below 1 and the...
Happiness
I am, for the first time in over a year, truly happy. Nothing can break me. I feel so free, so open, so ready. I have never felt this good. Finally.